Our Stories, Our Selves

Each one of us is a separately created and evolved person that has it’s own unique story to share with the One and All. We each personally reflect what choices and experiences we have all taken. We may think that is all we are, an inner composite of all of these choices and decisions. There is so much more!

It is becoming increasingly clear to many of us that this is only the smaller pattern that is only reflecting a greater pattern of which we are all a part. Each reality we experience is part of something greater. Part of my own individual reality started down this road of discovery when I first came upon writings of Carl Jung. What took hold of me in my early twenties was the concept of the process of individuation, the microcosm. This was truly a big blessing for me. It meant that my own life might have a greater meaning and significance then I once thought. The true greatness of this idea was that it pointed us towards a larger reality and inner meaning, the macrocosm.

A pattern has emerged within my imagination to help me illustrate how this process seems to be working. The pattern is a strand of DNA…it unfolds in several dimensions at once. The larger dimension is the inner relationship between the physical and spiritual reality. Whether or not one is aware of this larger pattern, each strand is operational while we are living here on this planet. On a smaller dimension, our individuality is asserting itself on a physical level so that our inner spiritual lives can unfold. Our spiritual side can grow apart or together with the physical strand because of our thoughts and actions.  Our inner selves can share and grow into a larger dimension depending on the nature of our actions and how they reflect back upon the nature of this greater reality.

There are many different teachings that help point this out. One example is the Biblical parable about building your house on sand or stone, a fitting tribute to the necessity of a solid foundation. Edgar Cayce acknowledges the same thing when he commented that one’s spiritual foundation be built “line-by-line,” “a little here, a little there,” and “practiced daily.”  Another facet of Cayce’s teaching was the adage that no matter what happens, God has prepared a way out. If one can imagine a series of intersecting, interconnected actions all moving forward in an ever-increasing spiral; the goal is the creation a more loving divine space within us. By connecting with that one small soul portion of ourselves, we can begin bridging the inner chasm between our mortal and immortal selves.

Now I am sure that some of you might be asking what this has to do with your own personal stories. Cayce says each of us represent a corpuscle in the body of our Creator. Once we are able to see past our own inner feelings of smallness and limitations, we become much more willing to accept the parts of ourselves that can help us recognize our inner greatness. We can become one with the Lord.  Our own individual stories will take on a greater meaning as we move forward. They may represent something in our past that we need to come to terms with or as a way of moving forward collectively. We are all interconnected. Another aspect is finding what our soul mission is. It could be anything, a vocation, a family, a religion or another spiritual pursuit. Things happen to us for a reason no matter how small and insignificant they might seem.

Right now as we speak, there is an ocean of love and light that is literally pouring down from the heavens. It is meant to strengthen our connectedness to that inner bridge, between all the strands of our earthly dimensions and the spiritual. It becomes increasingly important for all of us to pause inwardly to allow this light to enter within. Let our inward successes become the outward manifestation of our spiritual growth. Many of our choices will reflect what comes and what goes. Already there is much unrest in the world as we are all starting to wake up to these higher dimensions. We are no longer willing to accept the status quo and the rampant inequality that has caused so much suffering and inner blightedness to manifest.  Let our stories begin to share in the joys and the sorrows. We have been asking for the light and the love to help us all find our way back home. Every burden and sufferings can be given up into the ready embrace of the All Mighty’s love…everything.

Things are changing on many different levels. These higher frequency energies are changing not only the way we live but also fundamentally our societal structures that may no longer fit. We are changing. This has not been easy. Our rebirthing can start on an individual basis, but there are many among us who have already taken the necessary steps within to help others make similar transformations. A new wave has emerged. Our stories are merging into a higher vision that once seemed impossible and unimaginable.  Release what no longer holds any lasting value, breathe in and let these new energies into your own divine selves.  Once again, begin to reimagine your selves as divine sparks reigniting. Begin on another chapter of all our life stories that share in delight of our new forthcoming days…peace and blessings to all.

“What if, for one day, you treated every person you came in contact with as if they were the key to saving humanity? The petty differences and emotional disturbances you occasionally magnify would disappear, yes?”

“Here is a surprise for you; each person you meet on a daily basis IS the key to saving humanity! Everyone carries a piece of The Universe within their hearts…..treat it, and them, lovingly, respectfully and with the same care you show yourself. The beauty you find will always astound you!” ~ Creator (as transcribed by Jennifer Farley,  4/21/12 )

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My Spiritual Emergence

My Spiritual Emergence


Gordon Yumibe

“For all those who have or are suffering silently”

There’s been a chapter in my life that I have kept hidden from view. It concerns the trouble I have had with my own mental health issues. I know it is not necessary to include others in this chapter, but if writing about these things might help others; so be it. I’ve asked

for guidance many times over, and recently there have been others who have decided to come forward. Marsha M. Linehan recently had a New York Times article written about her personal issues with mental health.  (1) She’s now a respected therapist and teacher at the University of Washington. Another, Lauran M. Prato, wrote of her account in her book recently just released, “From the Inside- Out: Shattering the Mental Illness Myth. A True Story.” (2)

There has been a progressive understanding of some of the elements of mental illness, as too possible etiological reasons…there was a popular yet mythological myth that the reason for schizophrenia was having an over-dominating mother. That was still a thought in college level courses I’ve taken back in the 60-70’s. Well I don’t pretend to know much about the causes of mental health issues. I know they occur more frequently than once was thought. I also know that the stigma that has become attached to those who are suffering has began to lessen as well.

When I was thirty-five years old I suffered a month long psychotic episode. There are a lot of details of that month that I needn’t go in to. I had been working regularly with never a hint of what might be in store from me. I had even worked in hospital psychiatric floors for several years while attending college. I graduated from college with a degree in psychology in 1971. I had been devoted to a spiritual path for ten years but with out any formal discipline of meditation. I had also begun to see fleeting glimpses of a feminine spiritual energy that would come to me.

An acute psychotic episode was exactly that. I remember going to a restaurant to talk to my employer at the time and I remember walking out and everything just changed. It was a completely alienated world that I would inhabit for the next month or so. It was not a good feeling or comfortable. I thought lights that would chase me around the city at nights were pursuing me. I thought alien entities where trying to take and inhabit my body. I seemed normal on the outside, yet on the inside everything had an Alice in Wonderland feeling to it. I ended up taking my money I was saving and took off on a journey from Washington and down the coast to California. I would have nightly visions about where to go and I’d be off. None of the people I ended up visiting where aware of my inner turmoil. Eventually, the energy, which had propelled this acute episode, started dissipating and I started feeling my life force ebbing away. Through a fortunate turn of events, I was able to get admitted to a hospital in San Francisco and get the help I needed. The medication I received helped end this bizarre episode. I remember being overcome with gratefulness. I felt I could have easily ended up homeless. It took awhile regain my footing emotionally, but I ended up being able to quickly start to regain my normal senses.

Edgar Cayce talks about health as a cooperative balance between all spheres of mankind’s existence. The mind, body, spirit, and soul all have to create a mutually cooperative balance if inner health and equilibrium is to be achieved. I realized how tenuous and fragile this balance can really be. It can be rather frightening to feel one’s own mind start slipping away.

I was able to recover my senses and well being over the next year or so until I began to feel more grounded and connected to the life I had. I was able to work again and the fears of another episode begin to fade away.  There were, however, some lingering effects. They were two fold. One thing I begin to notice is that after this episode past, my own psychic channels began to open. I was more in tune with what other people were thinking. I, also at the same time, worried that people would never take me seriously again, you know… “the crazy one,” if I let them know what I was thinking.

Let’s move forward…twenty years have since passed and I’ve been regularly employed. Through another fortunate event, I started taking some courses through Atlantic University, the educational side of the Association of Research and Enlightenment in Virginia Beach. I graduated with a Spiritual Mentoring certificate a couple years ago. There were two courses that I took in addition to the require courses that were directly related to the experiences I had. One was: HMT 540, Mysticism and Mental Health. The other one was: AS 501, Transformational Astrology.

Mysticism and Mental Health helped me put another face on the difficult aspects of mental illness. Kay Redfield Jamison’s book, “Touched with Fire,” (3) talked about some of our most noted writers and poets, flirted with there own mental health issues throughout their most creative periods. There seems to be a statistical link with many of us between being able to be highly creative and having to deal personally with episodic periods of mania or what ever.

Another important part of HMT 540, was the link that Christina and Stanislav Grof, M.D. made to mental health issues and “spiritual crisis.” Their book “The Stormy Search for the Self,” (4) was part of this. It seems as if there is a link made between one’s emerging spirituality and the disruption it can cause to one’s mental equilibrium. In Laren M. Prato’s story, she talks about mental health providers being in the dark as to the true causes of some of her issues. She was forced to undergo time in a mental hospital because of what she was undergoing mental and emotionally. One of the more important facts of Prato’s personal account is the additional information in her appendix at the end of her story. This is where the story really begins for me because it talks about the DSM-lV having a new diagnostic category called “Religious or Spiritual Problem.” This is the lasting legacy possibly started with the Grof’s work spent over a lifetime trying to re-educate other mental health professionals about the very nature of this classification.

The other class: AS 501, Transformational Astrology, introduced me to the writings of Jeff Green, “ Pluto, The Evolutionary Journey of the Soul, Vol. l.” (5) There is much to be gained by reading some of these astrological writings. Green’s work touches upon some of the transformational aspects that this potent planet has. Here is some of my earlier work I did in writing a paper about this and it’s effect that it had on me.

“Pluto opposed to all planets in llth House, 1980-88: I think I may have struck an internal mother lode on this one. Could this actually account for some of the reasons that I had a “spiritual emergency?” To the best of my recollection I was 34-35 years old. Pluto was in the 11th House between my ages of 31 to 39. Here again I will be referring to Jeff Green’s description of Pluto. ‘individuals who have Pluto in the Eleventh House or Aquarius have been learning to break free from crystallized and outmoded forms of self-definition as reflected through the composite effect of society, parents, friends or anything else…the evolutionary intent has been to shed the skins of the past…they have been learning to resist becoming shackled, conditioned or defined by the customs of society…they have been learning to view themselves outside the confines of time and space…these individuals have also learned to sever all attachments that prevent further growth or freedom to explore new ways of discovering themselves…'(p. 199).”

There is one more aspect that seems worth mentioning here. It is a very personal note that seems to cap off this whole experience for me. One of the assignments I had while working on the Mysticism and Mental Health course was having the pleasure of writing a paper on Teresa of Avila and St. John of the Cross. Three of those books I read for that that course was translated by Mirabai Starr. I had an opportunity to meet her in Portland about a year later. The subject matter came up at the end of her talk about “spiritual crisis or emergence.” There was someone who voiced some skepticism about whether or not that was real or not. I remember coming strongly to the defense as to the validity of that or not. That very night I woke up from a dream that I had that I had been incarcerated in an insane asylum in a previous life because some others thought that I had become to “otherworldly.” Now, I have become not afraid of what others think about me…no more fear!

Now, almost thirty years ago since that initial time, I have become grateful for that fearsome experience. For those of us who are more able to live and experience other dimensions daily, this may just represent what our inner life may be evolving into. It’s been a long time now since I too, have stopped living in a world defined as just in time and space. About seven or eight years now I have become spiritual illuminated. I have written about it in some earlier articles. That portal that may have started opening with my spiritual emergence may have needed something of that nature or magnitude in order to evolve. Edgar Cayce has mentioned many times over to use each experience as a “stepping stone.” I now am able to helps other evolve beyond their own present inner spheres of experience in order so that they too might know more of their own personal spiritual soul and the creative forces which help shape them. It is that Divine link which we all share with each other and with our Creator. Thank you!



1.  Carey, Benedict.  “Expert on Mental Illness Reveals Her Own Fight.” New York Times. June 23,  2011. Page A1.

2.  Prato, Lauran M.  “From the Inside-Out: Shattering the Mental Illness Myth. A True Story.”    Charleston; BookSurge Publishing. 2009.

3.  Jamison, Kay Redfield. “Touched with Fire.” New York; Free Press Paperback. 1993

4.  Grof, Christina and Stanislov. “The Stormy Search for the Self.” New York; Penguin Putman. 1990.

5.  Green, Jeff.  “Pluto, The Soul’s Evolutionary Journey of the Soul. Vol l.”  St. Paul, Llewellyn Publications. 1998.





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My Spiritual Emergence

My Spiritual Emergence.

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Healing through the Akashic Records

Healing through the Akashic Records


Linda Howe


 Gordon Yumibe

The journey of a seeker usually means a solitary journey or path that must be taken by one’s  own self. It gives the individual seeker an ability to see for themselves the many merits or not of various teachings that are being presented as such. Once the path being evaluated is recognized as worthwhile, the individual must act, ultimately by him or herself.  Many times it is met with many, many trials that must be faced and mastered before the Truth will emerge. There really doesn’t seem to be any other way.

The initial attempts help create an inner fire or determination to a point where nothing but the truth will ever quench one’s inner thirst. Many times the very ones we wish to help end up wounding us.

Linda Howe has written a new book that perfectly resonates with the many truths that my own individual life reflects. It seems that her life of searching and discovery parallels mine on several different levels. I particularly like Section Three, “Our Sacred Wounds as a Pathway to Peace in Our Relations with Others.” We seem to have been able to come to the same passageway that speaks some of the same inner truths. She talks about her own personal breakthroughs into the spiritual realm that have helped her come to terms with her own life, her struggles, and her insights about this quest or healing journey we both seem to be making.

My life has also included personal breakthroughs into the spiritual realm and my own attempts to rectify the many, many wounds I too have had to endure. I have written other articles about this in other formats. It seems as if fate has led me back into Linda’s territory with her healing work through the Akashic Records.

For those of you who might not be familiar with the Akashic Records, they are supposed to be the repository of every created beings life story, from the moment of creation. Edgar Cayce was well known for his ability to travel to this Hall of Records while in a trance state. Many of his readings were the result of people seeking cures for physical ailments. There were many other readings for a wider variety of questions that have to do with one’s own spiritual growth and one’s own world viewpoint. By being able to find and access this storehouse of wisdom and love is a way to help each and every person begin to unlock the door to the many mysteries of ones own life. It also helps one face the fearful ramifications that come up when confronted by one’s own inner wounded ness. Linda and I have both come to realize that the true significance of facing these issues can be used as to create an internal bridge back to our inner Divinity, a passage way. A passageway created in order to help serve others.

I think there are many dimensions at work here. One thing that I think is key here is where the seeker discovers through experience, that one’s own pathway is blocked because of an inner obstruction, a wound. I’ve heard a long time ago that is compared to a Gordian knot, something that internally resisted and fights to the very end any attempts to help unravel it’s inner mysteries. It seems so unfair to the many of us who are facing this very dilemma need to face up and experience the same painful experience for a second time. Cayce has already stated somewhere that ultimately the reason for our diseases was the separation that we have back to the Source. Part of this adventure is to learn something about our Divine heritage, to reconnect with this inner source of love and life. Another part seems to be able to learn how we must be all begin to heal ourselves, so we can regain our Innocence and our Oneness.

Linda states so simply, directly and eloquently how we need to create a safe non-judgmental space through our work in the Akashic Records. It is a beginning to unravel our own “Gordian knot.”  Everything can be transformed. We create a pathway where these healing energies can create a bridge back to our Oneness. We learn to trust this process to a very real point of not being too phased or frightened of what comes into our awareness. We are able to release more and more of our inner wounded ness. We forgive. We become lighter in our very being. We regain the senses of our Divine nature; we love and learn to live in gratitude, grace and gratitude for what we have learned.

There was a movie made in 1968 that illustrates some of our Divine nature and it’s healing effects. The movie was, “ 2001, A Space Odyssey”, by Stanley Kubrick. Towards the very end of the movie, David Bowman the astronaut, finds himself as an aging old man laying in bed before which one of the monoliths appear in front of him. As he reaches out to it he becomes transformed into an embryonic baby floating peacefully back towards Earth. “It’s full of light!” Whenever I try to illustrate to the uninitiated what it’s like to become living in an illuminated state, that is what comes to mind. We become reborn, younger, innocent. The Akashic Records is just one of the many lights we can learn to access for our own growth, spiritually as well as healing.

I mentioned earlier that I had tried out Linda’s prayer method to gain access for myself. I was excited when her first book came out. I have spent several years obtaining a Certificate of Spiritual Mentoring through Atlantic University, the ARE’s educational branch in Virginia Beach. I had been creating my own pathways into some of my own wounded character. Her writings and practices meld quite nicely into this format I have created for myself. Some of my transformation and healing have been patterned after the Saturnian/Uranus/Chiron passageway, the “wounded healer.” As I continued on my own healing journey I’ve been given a second chance to begin using the energy of the Akashic Records again. They are like a “muscular bubbling brook” that is tumbling down into Earth plane for our own healing. Like the monolith, there is a healing sphere of many influences that is presently surrounding our physical planet that is shaping and transforming our lives and world as we speak. All we need to do is to learn how we can all help to restore our brothers and sisters natural state of unity, to become Love and Light unto each other once again. Peace…

“He leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul:”

23rd Psalms, KJV


I agreed beforehand to write an article after reading her new book. I have no financial stake and have only wish is to be able to share my own thoughts freely. Thank you for your understanding!

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